Seriously... I'm Missing You

Sigh... Seriously seriously seriously...I'm missing you very much.

Hope to spend this new year eve with you... to give ourself a new year ahead.

God Bless Us.

I don't feel emo at all...

Weird. I'm not feeling emo at all. After the bloody results. Surprising.

And I'm aware of my weaknesses.. they're like at my fingertips. And knowing how to cope with them.

This feeling.... feels very powerful. I think it's a good start. Good start.

after tonight...

After tonight... I don't know when I'll be back in this boring but peaceful home town of mine. Maybe the beginning to January ? Maybe in February for Chinese New Year ?

Well.. Certainly I want to make it back in town for good. Grandma grandpa looks frail and daddy looks fat (when I'm around he'll surely do some exercise to keep his weight down.)

All and all.. and above all... I felt that there's something still lingering around that I must settle. However, all these cases are located at the two ends of Malaysia. At the extreme North, and the Southern tip. I felt stretched... thanks to my flexibility I'm still surviving, but it has taken a toll on me, badly.

1 week later my results will be out. Should I log in and look at it ? Or should I just ignore it and continue studying ? I personally preferred the second choice. For all I've managed to pull back all the pieces together now is the time to start running. I can't afford to be smashed up again. Yes I can't.

Summer Pearl Night..

Bored... asked a few friends out for bubble tea. Been to Summer Pearl. No hot chicks. No boobies. No sexy mudabytch. Sad nia. Sungai Petani need to up it's standard to welcome home it's hometown perverts like me. FML.

..........

Boring and boring and boring........

Feel like going out but hell things ain't cheap back home !

Cold.... and it's cold and it's cold...

It's cold .... when you're alone.

A young man with an empty hand, empty pocket... and bottles of beer.

I walk alone.

Company of Heroes.

I know it's an old game. But this game trains your planning capability as well as the ability at which you can response to threat ! Awesome shit. Gonna master this game tight first before blogging on more.

Gotcha. Bye !

Solitaire ... in home.

Don't know why... since that incident... i felt that i lost a lot.

This sweet little hometown ... no longer smells like how it should be. No longer feels like how it should be.

I miss those friends.... those few only friends I have. But since the break-up... everyone is looking at me like a culprit. And i kinda felt sad about it.

Whatever it may be... let life be it.

男自汗不怕死 ！！

来吧阮子逸 ！！ 男自汗不怕死 ！！做个大男人 ！！

Let's just end it..

Look. It's all a freaking mistake. Let's just end it ok ? Cause I really dun have the energy to continue anymore. Sorry.

Writing this for myself...

Wan Zi Yi... This post is written at 23rd November 2010.. the day before you first paper in semester 1. I know how you feel. Because I'm you.

You regret. You want to cry. But you can't dude. Mom and Dad's gonna kill you soon. You let them down. You disappoint them. You lied to them ? Let's think about what we did in Semester 1 2010/2011.

For what ? You waste quite a lot of time there and you lost track of your homework... the worse thing happens. You start skipping lectures ! Yes ! You skipped a lot of lectures although all of them have webcasts !

But you know what... when you skipped the lectures you are sleeping in your room !!!!! Why must you waste your time like this ? You should not do this again, I repeat. You SHALL NOT BEHAVE LIKE THIS AGAIN in future. If you do, You are DOOOMED.

That basically the main problem with you this semester. Study wise, I admit, we studied more than what we did. BUT THAT's still not enough. Need to work harder ! Consistently !! NO SLACKING. !!

Next semester, This is the average day plan. And I'm glad that you managed to sleep early and wake up early nowadays. It is very very essential for your future ! This is how normal people's clock works and you don't fight this war alone, dude. You fought this war with the help of people that sleep and wakes in this hours.

• 6.00am Wake up and brush your teeth.. Go out and have a walk for 15 minutes. Walk to Fong Seng to buy coffee also nice. Just wake up with an aim not not studying. Wake up to buy coffee, and you will definitely wake up.
• 7.00am Coffee is with you and you reach your room. Start your studies. Read up on what's going to be taught today and also what is taught yesterday.
• 8.00am If there is lecture, GO ! If not, study more !!
• 9.30am I'm sure your mind is saturated now, game allowed, but only 1 hour.
• 10.00am If got lecture GO !
• 10.30am Back to business, revise the materials from 2 weeks ago.
• 12.00pm Go lecture ! If not, go to eat lunch with your friends !
• 2.00pm Don't care got lecture or no lecture, you must be in science faculty, either study in the canteen or S16 or whereever. No need to bring laptop.
• 4.00pm Go to Lecture.
• 5.00pm Move to YIH now. If not, then stay for lecture. Buy a cup of coffee and chill.
• 6.00pm Go back hall for dinner with mates.
• 7.00pm Sleep, for 1 hour. OR watch sunset OR go walk ! You seriously seriously need this time off, trust me.
• 8.00pm Recap on what was taught today and also prepare for any tutorial questions.
• 10.00pm Buffer time. Just in case hall activity took up your time.

Things to do once you come back from Malaysia :

1. Buy a toner for your printer and set up printer. If printer spoil, buy a new one seriously.
2. Clean up your room to be conducive for studies.
3. Buy a new desktop.
4. Buy a pair of slim fit grey jeans for yourself. Buy good one. Maybe GAP ? Or Armani Jeans

That's all for now. Let's move on, dude. MOVE ON.

Your crying face...

I swear I almost break down into tears when I see your crying face in my mind on that bad afternoon on 31st December 2009...

I turned back ... waving hand at you while walking into the security checkpoint... and you are standing at the other side... waving back... crying.

Sorry. Sorry for all that I've done wrong. Really sorry.

Boy..

Boy..

Months have passed..

Can you wake up ? From this shadowy grey life ?

Can you rise ? Can you fight back ?

Trees and logs have fallen on you but you never die... You are still breathing.

Now all you need to do is just stand up. And run.

Run for it. Run for it. Run for it.

bad semester..

this semester is not going to turn out as amazing as how it first looked like.. F*** !

regret...

call me a loser... i felt sad and regret over the things that i did this year.

call me a loser !

JUST CALL ME A LOSER !

Holy Lance

With the Holy Lance at the hand of the Grandmaster, the young knight as well as his peers are lead by him and charges out of the besieged city... hungry, weak, wounded but never die-hearted, they charge towards the infidel for the holy cause.

Tame the Devil in me...

Need to calm down... take a deep breath and think about future. Need to tame the Devil in me. Need to stay away from the dark force.

Don't reap the forbidden fruit now, for it causes problems rather than pleasures...

The return of TECHNOBITCH !

WHOAH ! who said Dell sucks !

WOHOO !

After doing some minor tweaks and improvements this old hag is way much faster now ! :)

Never look down on the most powerful Core 2 Duo processors. They're cool !

With this old hag back in full form i'm gonna win this war !

FORM the pikes wall !

Men ~~~!!! Men ~~~~!!!

On to your position !!

Grab your spears and lower your pikes to positions !

3 files of pikemen standing tight !!! They're coming !! They're coming !!

May God save our souls...

I'm so f***ed...

Sigh... as title... I'm really f*** this time. Couldn't finish studying the whole thing :( HOW HOW HOW !!!

Really need to change the strategy already. Can't "JUST DO IT" all the time !

Sigh... worse is my CAP is haunting me every night and day so stress that I down 5 cups of coffee last night and it felt as if an axe is cutting my brain apart. Worse headache in my life ever.. sigh.

That old wretch ...

That old bitch monster... she shall pay for what she has done. I'll make her cry one day !!

Now that my life is ruined cause of her... she shall regret of her actions and mistrust ! And all her impulsive comments back in the Fatherland. Sooo feel like showing her the finger but I'm not a barbarian like her !

Bloody bitch.

I am cool !

Lovely .. being greeted like a king back home.Returning home in the cover of the red NUS coat is indeed an awesome feeling.

Tokyo Tower : Mom and Me, and Sometimes Dad

This is seriously a MUST WATCH for all my friends.



Especially those of you that have the same feeling as me... feeling lost.. feeling like you've lost everything in life. YOU MUST WATCH.



I think this film makes me a full man 10 days before I am an adult.

It makes me "alive" again ! After like so many years... so many years of lurking in the dark.. like finally !

It touches your heart that I cried when watching the trailer alone in library !!

Trailer :



HELLO WORLD !!

I'M REALLY BACK !!

LIKE REAL !!!

YOU BETTER WATCH OUT !!!!

CAUSE THIS BOY IS NOW A MAN !!!!!!

OH YEAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously you guys should really really really watch this ! LOL

Super funny sia. This video has a very very simple point to make : English education is important.

Look at this ! Come one ! This kind of embarrassing stuff would never happen to any Singaporean government lawyer ! Why ? Because they are trained to speak English long before they can crawl ! (cause the mom and all talks English to him/her)

The ability to speak English for any Chinese is important. Seriously screw those useless Malaysian Chinese who called their English speaking peers "Banana People". You guys are merely killing your own future. Yes Mandarin is important for us Chinese as an identity, as long as we can speak and write in it it's OK ! But please don't go into the extend that when you see other Chinese's English is better than you then you start calling them Banana. Come on.. for all you know he's actually capable of speaking and writing in Chinese and he might be able to write calligraphy too ! Own you to the max, k ?

And to those who said that China's gonna grow big soon and Mandarin will dominate the global theatre, sorry to said to you but I've talked to many NUS students who went there to do intern-ship in Shanghai, they speak and use English in work, WOOPS Gotcha !

English has made its mark throughout the world in an extend never achieved by any other language before for a century ! The world population has reached an agreement that English will be the language used as universal language. Let's say one day we need to talk to aliens in our language, English will be chosen to represent us, Human.

So sorry to say to Malaysia.. If you guys insists on teaching everything in Malay or those chinese independent school who insists in teaching everything in Mandarin, may God be with you :)

(I'm sure the Almighty understands both Malay and Chinese so don't worry he'll answer your prayer)

OMG its WALA WALA for tonight !

OH YEAH !

Finally a long awaited session beer outing with best seniors !! to wala-wala !!

WOHOOO !!!!!!!

3 more hours to out time. gonna mug now first !!

Let Me Be The Bad Guy

Don't know why.. lately the thought of going back Sungai Petani seems so foreign to me.

Sungai Petani, has become a place that I want to go last lately. Due to certain events and some peoples whom has been talking bad about me and putting all the blame on me or whatever shit I don't know.

It's just such a turning point in my life, that I felt I'm living on self-exile. You know what? I kind of love it.

At least now, I am no longer chained to the responsibility I used to carry. I'm no longer associated with that small pathetic little town where the mindsets of people are so childish, their visions limited to such a small scope that much chances passes them by without being noticed.

A small town I used to live.
A small town I grew up in.
A small town that burns my hatred.
A small town that will be my pass.
A small town that now brings back horrifying memories.
A small town full of racism elements.
A small town meant for doom.
A small town where I can still seek refuge when all else.... failed....


After so many years of repetitive failure... the dreams and ambitions I can think of when I was in Form 5..become so vague... every time in 5SN1, I would take my free time gazing at the majestic Gunung Jerai. From the view.. I dream of myself achieving all the greatness and glory.

BUT NOW..... it's all so vague.. though I can still see a silver lining along the dark storm clouds.. It would drain up all that's left in me to get there.

And that, I shall do it. With all the resources I have now, there's no harm trying.

Achieving those dreams.. is still possible.

And every night... I dream of myself.. returning home to Sungai Petani.. with tales of glory about me being spoken in coffee shops... tales of a legendary boy that inpires the young kids in Sin Min Primary School.

Tales so majestic that strikes fear into the heart of those whom cause all these misery I'm facing now !!

I will be a legend. I know I will. I'm born to be a legend. I know. I just need to give in all I have. And that, I will.

Mr. - 森林

靜靜凝視窗前
腦海的思緒像花　在冬季睡眠
天邊已泛彩霞
這一刻都市像畫　但始終一個歸家
轉眼間　太多的變化
人潮內聽這鬧市的笑話
瞬間所有悲傷　都只覺渺小
慢慢學會　世界若暫停　仍不再重要

其實　命運就像大廈
如都市幻化　凌亂如燈火中的密碼
露台　看看世界吧
這個天下　閃爍風光不再嗎
經過幾多變化

夜幕來襲森林
這朵花　不會盛開　但始終想再喧嘩
花與花　再不懂去愛嗎
活在大世界化做敵人　如此冷酷嗎

其實　命運就像大廈
如都市幻化　凌亂如燈火中的密碼
露台　看看世界吧
這個天下　用盡方法建立這一個家
每朵　高高低低的花
為都市腐化　零落時找到它的代價
但仍有個美態吧　不怕倒下
天邊的一顆碎花
為誰而腐化

其實　命運就像大廈
如都市幻化　凌亂如燈火中的密碼
露台　看看世界吧.
這個天下　用盡方法建立這一個家
卑躬屈膝的花
為都市腐化　零落時擦亮這個家
但仍有個美態吧　不怕倒下
花開花飛花似畫

經得起變化

love this song. everyone surely can face whatever challenge they are given.

The End of The Journey for ABC 09/10

You guys know what does ABC stands ? Surely I know none of you know.

ABC stands for A-Block Committee. HAHA. Yup. We handed it over to the next batch of ABS that got elected like just yesterday night. It's a bitter-sweet event to hand over. :(

A-block has been my home my family since I moved into KR. No people except JJ that I knew in this hall, NUS to be sure. Being around with this bunch of fun, caring and Awesome people is simply amazing. No one else can replace them. Look at the batch of seniors whom just graduated last year, we still keep in touch with them, jio them come back hall drink beer watch movie all those shit :) It's marvellous !

Gonna be 'pseudo-block comm' for this year. HAHA. That's the role of every ex-block comm man ! WOHOO !!

A-BLOCK ! HUAT AR !

Why Am I Here ?

Nothing much.

just trying to pump in more pressure into my brain by reminding me why am I here in NUS.

People around me like to ask me why I pressure myself so much ?

Truth is, my life is pushed by pressure and stress. Thinking too much and being over worried has been what makes me so far. I think they bring me more success than failures. Anyway, I need a good cup of coffee, to fuel this whole shit up and work my way to KCL.

Yes, finally a chance to study overseas !!

I can still RUN !

OMG... I wanna show off a huge achievement !

My running stamina is still super good !!! I clocked 4.2km in 25 minutes ! OMG OMG OMG !!

Thanks to my ASICS Foundation 8 ! (though ur brother Foundation 9 is in the market d, you're still one tough boy !)

Seriously ADIDAS and NIKE only got style. But they are cheap and useless shoes compared to genuine running shoes like ASICS and SAUCONY !


I can do it ! YES I CAN !

I'm so gonna make it for all the sports trial !

Project Meeting on my weekend again...

I don't know since when... that I felt that I've become a working machine.

So bad.. Just when I'm trying my very best to become a human again, many things stopped me from doing so. Is it a test for my determination ? Or is it God's will to make me a working machine and not a human ?

But judging from my current situation now, there's no way that I can achieve my dreams without being a working machine. So.. swallow it and bear with it. It's just another transition state that make people go crazy.

Singapore Army Conscription.

Tough sia... Look at these dudes. Shit why Malaysia NS never drill and train us into this kind of toughness ? Loser lih.

Coffee...

And the crusader sit quietly in his room... sipping the bold and aromatic arabian coffee, while wondering what awaits him in the evening.

Only fear, lives in his heart. It's ironic. It's like a subtle calmness.... heavily laced with the elements of fear. Reminding him of the Burgsee he once visited in Teutonic Germany, calm black water tainted with Norse tales of black dragon living beneath it, stirring fear and uneasiness.

Fight on, young knight. For glory awaits at the sight of the Holy Grail.

Good Bastard is 53 years old now.

Good old bastards' 53 now.

Let see how long can she live with so much fatal disease going on that might just kill her in her next sleep. But I'm sure her old bone's gonna keep her going. She's Malaysia after all. She will survive.

Finally... A good short rest.

Finally ! A short good rest.

Gotta swear that I must be mad when I choose to take up this subject. But judging from other people's blurness until now. I believe this is one of the subject I can score but I must work harder !

It is one subject that I understand faster than others ! HAHAHAHAH !!

Year 2 is really a different field of game that I should play and I should win. It's MY GAME =)

Tired..

Sigh..

I can't be bothered about so much any more..

Just give me a life where I can do my part well. Give me a life where I can focus on my studies and my health.

Seriously I am not Superman and I can't be there to save the day all the time.

Just let those shit happen and I find a way to save myself enough already.

YES. I know I'm no longer the old me. I'm no longer the old dude who would be there for anyone to save the day.

I'm SELFISH. I learnt to protect myself. I learned that if I'm not happy my life isn't happy.

I don't give a shit about the rest any more. Maybe this is the real way of how you are supposed to face the world.

Self-survival FIRST. Goodbye love.

I AM ALMIGHTY

YES I AM THE ALMIGHTY I CAN DO IT !

IF I CANT NO ONE ELSE CAN OH YEAH OH YEAH !

DESPITE ALL THE SHIT I'M DANGLING WITH NOW I AM STILL STANDING OH YEAH !

WATCH OUT YOU ALL PUNY BONES ! I'M COMING !!

Mug and Mug and Mug

I shall mug until my brain is saturated. It's only week 3 and the notes are already thick.

Might go for drinking session with best buddies but depends on my time in hall also. It's hard being an important person in hall yet need to balance school works and hall and old friendship.

I already set my mind clear : I won't return home this December and Chinese New Year unless I scored well for my coming mid-term exams. If I don't make results here, it would be a shame to return home. Just like how the medieval crusaders would do, if they don't kill enough Moslems, they stay in the Holy Land and butcher more men.

That should be the mind-set now. To make myself living on that thin line between sanity and insanity. That thin line between home and foreign.

Hope that would churn out the best in me. The very best in me. If I don't churn that out, when in the future is it ever possible for me to do that again ?

Regret

Sigh..looking at other's overseas photos just reminded me of how much have I missed in life.

It has been a long and uneasy ride of failure and disappointment. Shall not let this continue.

UC Davis or UCSD will be the aim. After that we make a big deal in America and come back as champions.

4 core modules and I am dying..

Feeling ambitious this semester I whacked 4 core modules and now I feel like I am dying already. Shit.

Gonna stop complaining. maybe living along the line of life and death is the optimum surroundings that can churn out the best in me. Bringing out the gifted brain out mind instead of keeping dormant for 4 years already.

Seriously I missed the glory of being a top student. I missed the glory of being praised and liked by all the relatives for being a high-acer. What about making this deal with myself ?

That I shall not go back Sungai Petani until I scored CAP 4.2 and above ?

It's going to get retarded soon...

This small brain of mine cannot withstand so much workload and it's going crazy soooooon !! REAL SOON !

So sad today I just PS ah ling and CZQ for some beer session in Brewerkz. Sien tiao ! I'm so looking forward for a beer session ok ?!

Health Minister's Award

OMG ... you people know what ?!

I dreamt that I was honoured with the "Health Minister's Award" in my convocation for "efforts put into research on tumour protein that saved lives of millions of Singaporean" !!!

OMG that was such a sweet dream. That was awesome ! That's just ..... a dream.

BUT !

A dream will be an idea... an inspiration... a motive to drive/propel myself... an aim.. a work in progress.... A REALITY.

Yes make it a reality !!! I have all I need now ! never in my life God has been so fair to me !!

BECK'S !!!!!

Holy cow no wonder those Ah Pek in Singapore's kopitiam like to drink this beer !

It's called Beck's.



Taste clean, crisp and light ! Sharp contrast from Singapore's famous which has a distinctive wooden taste !

Awesome !! The best thing is the price : Same as Tiger !

Nice... gonna love this beer now :D

How I love the way the world look at me now.

YES !!

I LOVE IT !!!

YES !!!!!!!! EMBRACE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously I need a drink tonight !!!!!!!!

A BIG GOOD DRINK TO GET ME HELL OUT OF IT !

Too many things to do. Too many things to think about.

Life has never been stressful as now. 2 biggest committees are pressing me to become the leader. I choose one because there are jobs undone there, but the other keep pressing me to pick up the job too, which is very unlikely.

Studying wise, year 2 is a big year. Its called the doom year of life sciences. Yeah I pressed myself to take up 4 core modules, forcing myself to become hard-working as I used to be.

Yes I know I still have the potential to do it. I know I can.

The dream of developing into USA, being New York or San Diego as the main target has struck me again. Biotechnology has never been as advance as the USA. Shall go there and make an empire for myself, then return to Singapore when it's ripe and give back to the Lion City.

Singapore is a great place to live indeed. But not a great place to achieve your full potential.

MUST be strong ! MUST be tough ! MUST create legend !

Nothing's gonna stand in my way !

I am sending off a warning.

Anyone who stands in my way that blocks me from achieving what I want, shall be annihilated.

This is a stern warning. So take it seriously.

Solitaire

Sometimes... in fact most of the time.. I just want to stay low key.. stay alone, shut from this world. I don't know why. Maybe this is what people described as 'emo' ?

But No.. hell no. I'm not unhappy or what. I just want to be alone and while day dreaming for a while. Thinking about future... thinking about going to the USA.. thinking about New York..

hell yeah new york... a city that is synonymous with the colour black and white. these 2 colours almost sum up the life i want anyway. not happy, not sad. Just plain. Dull. Classy. Lonely perhaps.

No matter what. I must go New York. Stayed there. Hide there. Cause I know at there, I can be alone. Alone forever, sipping coffee on some road-side bars. After that head over to Rockefeller or MSKCC for work. Ahah !! That's life. Knowing that my work would save people's life one day. Draining my own life away... to keep others alive. Yes, i know i am in this world to complete this mission. I knew it right from the beginning.

I know I can, I will, and I must.

!4 days to battle.

This time really wtf already. Only 14 days left to war !!

I will survive.

I will survive.

I will shine.

I will outshine the rest.

I will break my limit.

I will become a legend.

Angsty..

I think the discipline problems of those bastards are not under my responsibility. My job is just to make sure that the materials produced are good enough to be used and they are on time with the progress. So please, don't do that again.

Best thing to do after a tired day..

You know what is it ? Drink 1 glass of Erdinger alone in your room... surfing net and doing things that you like. :D

Arrhhh.... at the end of the day. You realised that hard work pays off :D

Lovely. Can feel that love is surrounding you.

Lovely.

Seriously... Beer is the proof that God wants us to be happy :D

Protein is the future....

Lately.. possibly due to the nature of NUS's research focus, my interest in biology is slowly inclining towards the genetics and biochemistry side.

Maybe it's in the blood too... my grandfather (paternal side) was a Chinese Medicine Practitioner, my father is a Chemistry teacher...

And I ... A life science student.

Still ... pondering whether should I study Molecular Biology ... or Biomedical Science.

So sad that NUS doesn't allow students to take up 2 specialist area. Something I'm getting "tulan" now...

But thinking of the bright side... I'm one lucky bastard as my friends in Malaysia are doing shit due to some "kuliterasi" policy.

"Thank you" Malaysia.

"Damn you" Singapore.

Studying Biomedical Sciences allows me to work on a more integrated system of the human biology. Allowing me to join the legions of biology genius of the Lion City.

Molecular Biology ? Well the time is not yet fully matured yet, but it's wave of advancement is building up. The future is in Molecular Biology.

What's more, I could be a National Hero one day if I managed to find a cure to stop pandemics like SARS and H1N1.

FYI : Singapore list pandemics like SARS ans H1N1 as a major threat to herself.

What's the verdict ?

Study and Ace as much modules as possible. Then, let the freedom as a graduate student lead the way :)

p/s : i'm bearing the colour of medieval crusaders now :P

Spot my new Timbuk2 bag :P

.... and the Crusader rises !

After months of weary war...

Poor morale....

.... and a never dying spirit !

To own the Holy Crown ...

... of the Ivory Towers !

... A change in the tide of war has happen !!

.... and the war continues....

... with the Crusader leading the charge !

Library camping season...

Ok... now that hall stuffs and starting to cool down and getting easier for me now...

I found a good nice spot ... the chinese library...

It's cold and it's comfortable !

Hip Hip Hoorah !

New Year Resolution ?

New Year Resolution ? To get good grades and earn huge money for future ? For good of my love and my family ?

Sounds familiar ... Hm... ya... I said that to myself last year while selling kuih in Singapore.

Look's like the word "resolution" doesn't fit the picture. You can follow or don't follow the resolution, but that's where the problem lies !

I MUST FOLLOW MY PLAN !!

Correct ! No matter what. This year's plan will be the simplest of all = To Follow My Plan ! Everything ! Do it as planned !!

Think of my 'not-so-glorious' CAP makes me almost wanna puke !

My CAP does not glorify me enough to allow me to act like Brad Pitt in "Inglorious Bastards" .. Haha !

That movie motivates me a lot man ! LOL ... how ?

I'll tell you many years from now and let's see if Malaysian government still send their "son of the earth" to Melbourne :) I'll do it my way :)

Whatever ! The plan now is ! DO IT AS PLANNED !