Take up the challenge.

Don't cry, young man.

Take it as a chance to grow up. Pause, take a deep breath, and keep walking.

When you are down and really cannot take it and no one's there for you, don't worry, sit down in your room and talk to Jack, sleep, wake up fresh and keep pushing.

There's always a silver lining to all the storms in the world.

Reforming my lines.

Ate the burger, drank the green tea. Suddenly the world seems like a beautiful place again.


I want to be in control in my life.

I will not let love, health, studies and the society take me down.

I have learnt to be tough after the incident.

I know what I should do now.

I will fight back.

I will not back down.

I will go home and hug my mom and let her know I fought well.

Don't Cry, It's all GG Up

Don't cry boy. Everything's GG. It's pretty much over.

Salvage whatever you can to stay in NUS. Hope for the best and pray as much as you can.

For all you can do now is do sit in your room and eat the McSpicy Burgers to calm and treat yourself.

it had to be good..

OK I've not studied this hard before in university. SO this time it has to be good although I know chemistry is never my strength, and adding a bio- to make it biochemistry doesn't make much difference. But God, bless me please.

need more ... more...

shit man.. met that dude and he told me he might be joining next year. shit.. daugh.. shitty daug.

Seriously, all these shits must be unf***ed. It's not gonne be easy dauwg but it gotta be done !

God bless me.

Serious things aside, it's great to see how things are going well in the block. Where young guys get interested in young girls and young girls happily play around with those young guys' flirt. Motherf***in awesome. XXX you see, boys, are the key to a happy hostel life among those young dudes. I know it's an ugly secret but hell yeah this is how things work out.

Found back the purpose...

Yeah ! Found back why I am here. Why am I here in NUS fighting the best, training to be the elite, to take on my stage one day.

I finally remembered why I choose here over other places. Why I want to fight with the best to keep up with the bell curves when I can lead an easier life in other university. I finally remember....

God bless, for all my condition now is like a piece of shit. I shall withstand it.

The start of a new charge..

OK.. This semester my attitude will be "do-or-die" !

So be it. Don't look back and point your lance to your front. And show them who you are !

I don't feel emo at all...

Weird. I'm not feeling emo at all. After the bloody results. Surprising.

And I'm aware of my weaknesses.. they're like at my fingertips. And knowing how to cope with them.

This feeling.... feels very powerful. I think it's a good start. Good start.

after tonight...

After tonight... I don't know when I'll be back in this boring but peaceful home town of mine. Maybe the beginning to January ? Maybe in February for Chinese New Year ?

Well.. Certainly I want to make it back in town for good. Grandma grandpa looks frail and daddy looks fat (when I'm around he'll surely do some exercise to keep his weight down.)

All and all.. and above all... I felt that there's something still lingering around that I must settle. However, all these cases are located at the two ends of Malaysia. At the extreme North, and the Southern tip. I felt stretched... thanks to my flexibility I'm still surviving, but it has taken a toll on me, badly.

1 week later my results will be out. Should I log in and look at it ? Or should I just ignore it and continue studying ? I personally preferred the second choice. For all I've managed to pull back all the pieces together now is the time to start running. I can't afford to be smashed up again. Yes I can't.

bad semester..

this semester is not going to turn out as amazing as how it first looked like.. F*** !

regret...

call me a loser... i felt sad and regret over the things that i did this year.

call me a loser !

JUST CALL ME A LOSER !

Holy Lance

With the Holy Lance at the hand of the Grandmaster, the young knight as well as his peers are lead by him and charges out of the besieged city... hungry, weak, wounded but never die-hearted, they charge towards the infidel for the holy cause.

The return of TECHNOBITCH !

WHOAH ! who said Dell sucks !

WOHOO !

After doing some minor tweaks and improvements this old hag is way much faster now ! :)

Never look down on the most powerful Core 2 Duo processors. They're cool !

With this old hag back in full form i'm gonna win this war !

FORM the pikes wall !

Men ~~~!!! Men ~~~~!!!

On to your position !!

Grab your spears and lower your pikes to positions !

3 files of pikemen standing tight !!! They're coming !! They're coming !!

May God save our souls...

I'm so f***ed...

Sigh... as title... I'm really f*** this time. Couldn't finish studying the whole thing :( HOW HOW HOW !!!

Really need to change the strategy already. Can't "JUST DO IT" all the time !

Sigh... worse is my CAP is haunting me every night and day so stress that I down 5 cups of coffee last night and it felt as if an axe is cutting my brain apart. Worse headache in my life ever.. sigh.

I can still RUN !

OMG... I wanna show off a huge achievement !

My running stamina is still super good !!! I clocked 4.2km in 25 minutes ! OMG OMG OMG !!

Thanks to my ASICS Foundation 8 ! (though ur brother Foundation 9 is in the market d, you're still one tough boy !)

Seriously ADIDAS and NIKE only got style. But they are cheap and useless shoes compared to genuine running shoes like ASICS and SAUCONY !


I can do it ! YES I CAN !

I'm so gonna make it for all the sports trial !

Project Meeting on my weekend again...

I don't know since when... that I felt that I've become a working machine.

So bad.. Just when I'm trying my very best to become a human again, many things stopped me from doing so. Is it a test for my determination ? Or is it God's will to make me a working machine and not a human ?

But judging from my current situation now, there's no way that I can achieve my dreams without being a working machine. So.. swallow it and bear with it. It's just another transition state that make people go crazy.

Coffee...

And the crusader sit quietly in his room... sipping the bold and aromatic arabian coffee, while wondering what awaits him in the evening.

Only fear, lives in his heart. It's ironic. It's like a subtle calmness.... heavily laced with the elements of fear. Reminding him of the Burgsee he once visited in Teutonic Germany, calm black water tainted with Norse tales of black dragon living beneath it, stirring fear and uneasiness.

Fight on, young knight. For glory awaits at the sight of the Holy Grail.

Finally... A good short rest.

Finally ! A short good rest.

Gotta swear that I must be mad when I choose to take up this subject. But judging from other people's blurness until now. I believe this is one of the subject I can score but I must work harder !

It is one subject that I understand faster than others ! HAHAHAHAH !!

Year 2 is really a different field of game that I should play and I should win. It's MY GAME =)

Tired..

Sigh..

I can't be bothered about so much any more..

Just give me a life where I can do my part well. Give me a life where I can focus on my studies and my health.

Seriously I am not Superman and I can't be there to save the day all the time.

Just let those shit happen and I find a way to save myself enough already.

YES. I know I'm no longer the old me. I'm no longer the old dude who would be there for anyone to save the day.

I'm SELFISH. I learnt to protect myself. I learned that if I'm not happy my life isn't happy.

I don't give a shit about the rest any more. Maybe this is the real way of how you are supposed to face the world.

Self-survival FIRST. Goodbye love.