Good Bastard is 53 years old now.

Good old bastards' 53 now.

Let see how long can she live with so much fatal disease going on that might just kill her in her next sleep. But I'm sure her old bone's gonna keep her going. She's Malaysia after all. She will survive.

Finally... A good short rest.

Finally ! A short good rest.

Gotta swear that I must be mad when I choose to take up this subject. But judging from other people's blurness until now. I believe this is one of the subject I can score but I must work harder !

It is one subject that I understand faster than others ! HAHAHAHAH !!

Year 2 is really a different field of game that I should play and I should win. It's MY GAME =)

Tired..

Sigh..

I can't be bothered about so much any more..

Just give me a life where I can do my part well. Give me a life where I can focus on my studies and my health.

Seriously I am not Superman and I can't be there to save the day all the time.

Just let those shit happen and I find a way to save myself enough already.

YES. I know I'm no longer the old me. I'm no longer the old dude who would be there for anyone to save the day.

I'm SELFISH. I learnt to protect myself. I learned that if I'm not happy my life isn't happy.

I don't give a shit about the rest any more. Maybe this is the real way of how you are supposed to face the world.

Self-survival FIRST. Goodbye love.

I AM ALMIGHTY

YES I AM THE ALMIGHTY I CAN DO IT !

IF I CANT NO ONE ELSE CAN OH YEAH OH YEAH !

DESPITE ALL THE SHIT I'M DANGLING WITH NOW I AM STILL STANDING OH YEAH !

WATCH OUT YOU ALL PUNY BONES ! I'M COMING !!

Mug and Mug and Mug

I shall mug until my brain is saturated. It's only week 3 and the notes are already thick.

Might go for drinking session with best buddies but depends on my time in hall also. It's hard being an important person in hall yet need to balance school works and hall and old friendship.

I already set my mind clear : I won't return home this December and Chinese New Year unless I scored well for my coming mid-term exams. If I don't make results here, it would be a shame to return home. Just like how the medieval crusaders would do, if they don't kill enough Moslems, they stay in the Holy Land and butcher more men.

That should be the mind-set now. To make myself living on that thin line between sanity and insanity. That thin line between home and foreign.

Hope that would churn out the best in me. The very best in me. If I don't churn that out, when in the future is it ever possible for me to do that again ?

Regret

Sigh..looking at other's overseas photos just reminded me of how much have I missed in life.

It has been a long and uneasy ride of failure and disappointment. Shall not let this continue.

UC Davis or UCSD will be the aim. After that we make a big deal in America and come back as champions.

4 core modules and I am dying..

Feeling ambitious this semester I whacked 4 core modules and now I feel like I am dying already. Shit.

Gonna stop complaining. maybe living along the line of life and death is the optimum surroundings that can churn out the best in me. Bringing out the gifted brain out mind instead of keeping dormant for 4 years already.

Seriously I missed the glory of being a top student. I missed the glory of being praised and liked by all the relatives for being a high-acer. What about making this deal with myself ?

That I shall not go back Sungai Petani until I scored CAP 4.2 and above ?