regret...

call me a loser... i felt sad and regret over the things that i did this year.

call me a loser !

JUST CALL ME A LOSER !

I'm so f***ed...

Sigh... as title... I'm really f*** this time. Couldn't finish studying the whole thing :( HOW HOW HOW !!!

Really need to change the strategy already. Can't "JUST DO IT" all the time !

Sigh... worse is my CAP is haunting me every night and day so stress that I down 5 cups of coffee last night and it felt as if an axe is cutting my brain apart. Worse headache in my life ever.. sigh.

That old wretch ...

That old bitch monster... she shall pay for what she has done. I'll make her cry one day !!

Now that my life is ruined cause of her... she shall regret of her actions and mistrust ! And all her impulsive comments back in the Fatherland. Sooo feel like showing her the finger but I'm not a barbarian like her !

Bloody bitch.

Tired..

Sigh..

I can't be bothered about so much any more..

Just give me a life where I can do my part well. Give me a life where I can focus on my studies and my health.

Seriously I am not Superman and I can't be there to save the day all the time.

Just let those shit happen and I find a way to save myself enough already.

YES. I know I'm no longer the old me. I'm no longer the old dude who would be there for anyone to save the day.

I'm SELFISH. I learnt to protect myself. I learned that if I'm not happy my life isn't happy.

I don't give a shit about the rest any more. Maybe this is the real way of how you are supposed to face the world.

Self-survival FIRST. Goodbye love.

How I love the way the world look at me now.

YES !!

I LOVE IT !!!

YES !!!!!!!! EMBRACE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously I need a drink tonight !!!!!!!!

A BIG GOOD DRINK TO GET ME HELL OUT OF IT !